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Post by goldenmyst on Aug 18, 2022 22:06:31 GMT -6
High School Field Trip
Blue sky cathedral Arches over oak pews Of green grass church Where youth paints its dream Mine a stoic solitude Lost in inner chambers Of monastic self love
“John you like girls.” I sit in monkish silence. “And girls like you. Don’t you like John?” “Yea sure.” She lays like a vision of love The star in my sky Whom I long to reach up and touch
“Why don’t you talk to people John?” “Because 99% of conversations are bullshit.” “Yea but that’s what life’s about.”
I slip into desolate reverie Where my desert heart beats In arid sands of solitude
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Post by QueenFoxy on Aug 19, 2022 6:52:21 GMT -6
Love this one, John.
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Post by goldenmyst on Aug 19, 2022 8:28:08 GMT -6
Thanks so much, Foxy. True story this one. So very glad you enjoyed this one.
Xo John
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Post by Catlady2710 on Aug 19, 2022 11:01:03 GMT -6
Good one John
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Post by goldenmyst on Aug 19, 2022 11:35:05 GMT -6
Thanks, Cat my friend. All a true story of me in the solitude of my youth. John
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Post by QueenFoxy on Aug 19, 2022 17:47:29 GMT -6
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Post by goldenmyst on Aug 19, 2022 17:59:18 GMT -6
Love your tag my friend. And I completely agree about the need for fantasy. This poem was reality. It describes the scene exactly as it was. I was such a lonely boy.
Xo John
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Post by QueenFoxy on Aug 19, 2022 18:52:05 GMT -6
That's sad, John. I grew up with siblings, so was never lonely. I had two sisters older than me, and two brothers younger than me. I was that proverbial middle child. I kind of worked into the older sisters sometimes, and sometimes, the younger brothers.
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Post by goldenmyst on Aug 19, 2022 19:12:15 GMT -6
I had two sisters but lived in a Catholic boarding school in high school. There I was a recluse by choice or biology. All I did was study. Got a fantastic education but only two friends and no girlfriends.
Xo John
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Post by QueenFoxy on Aug 19, 2022 19:42:24 GMT -6
It's sad to be lonely during those very important, early years, John, and I'm sorry that you were. I think it affects your entire life. A wide array of friends helps to develop your social skills.
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Post by goldenmyst on Aug 19, 2022 20:14:04 GMT -6
Quite right. One of my favorite writers was a loner. He had schizophrenia but wrote one of the best-selling popular philosophy books of all time. So in spite of his solitude, he found inner creativity. I read his book as a teenager and identified with him profoundly.
Xo John
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Post by Deleted on Aug 20, 2022 1:18:04 GMT -6
I can relate with this in my own way man. I was kind of a loner myself, an outcast, not in the "popular" crowd and bullied a lot growing up, rejected and not just by girls but just rejected period. I hid myself in my studies as well and a lot of that is probably why I am socially awkward to this day to some extent and why I rub people the wrong way sometimes and make a lot of people not care for me much..idk. So yeah, I get this man but do know, we all have each other here now man. and I do agree, still, a lot of things are bs, a lot of people are bs but stick to and allow for the ones who aren't bs be in your life bro..I've learned to focus on my "Close circle" of loved ones and you all on here are in that circle and that's not bs, though we have never met in person you all still are. I focus on my family, this board, my friends Mike and Ej and that's my focus anymore. I've wasted too much time and effort trying to be a "people pleaser" and trying and worrying about everyone liking me and I guess I've gotten kind of "rough" in a sense, again, why some may have a hard time liking me sometimes. I try to be good to those who are good to me.
She lays like a vision of love The star in my sky Whom I long to reach up and touch
and this, yes...I get this too....she's always been out of my reach though close so many times.
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Post by goldenmyst on Aug 20, 2022 11:04:44 GMT -6
Michael, thank you so much for sharing your ways of coping with loneliness. Your experiences are the story of my life. Indeed, all my life I have been an outsider. People here are my only family now. Most of my relatives have passed on and my surviving two sisters stay away from me. So I can identify with your life story very much. I did have a wife with whom I truly felt close. But she has passed on. So now it is just me and my internet friends.
John
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Post by QueenFoxy on Aug 20, 2022 13:36:26 GMT -6
Guys, I'm glad the Castle is there for you, and take my word for it, you bring a lot to the Castle. I think we have a great bunch of members who are accepting of everyone. They are all kind and loving.
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Post by goldenmyst on Aug 20, 2022 22:08:24 GMT -6
Foxy, I agree completely. This place is an oasis in the net. Glad to know Michael and I bring a lot to the castle. I hold dear and precious the people here.
Xo John
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